What a dirty fucking word. Should. It honestly makes my skin crawl. “You should go for a walk today! Its nice out!” Great. I have eyes and everything and I can see that. I don’t feel like going out today. I’m bleeding, I’m exhausted, I have cramps, my back is KILLING me and I need to lay down.

I understand my choreless existence. I don’t have a job because I need learn to not focus on SHOULD,  what I/anyone/everyone thinks I SHOULD do. The point of all of this shit is to break free of the should and choose to be who and where I need to be when I need to. That’s it. That’s what IS. Should IS a dirty word. Its like the C word only worse and I’m not talking could…