I feel once a day I get a gentle reminder. A reminder to be kind to myself. A reminder to let others BE, a reminder to quit punishing myself and if I’m lucky a reminder to rest. Now that I’m paying more attention I notice how easy it is for me to shift my attention to someone/something else. Now that my attention has shifted to the other person, I’ve forgotten all about the work I have to do for myself. Next thing I know I’m lost, not in a dark jungle lost, like in a mall lost. I know there has to be one of those directories somewhere! So I sit down and look for the reminders, the directory. Pay attention. So I pay attention, I find the directory, the reminders and I head back on my path. What I would do with out those reminders… I don’t know. I get lost so easy. The second I hear of suffering in someone else, I feel for them, I want to help, I want to fix, I want to make it better! I hate suffering! I want to end it for them. But wait! That’s impossible. The only person who can truly dig in and figure out what can be done for who is the sufferer. Ah yes, that reminder! Right, so first before I can be of use to any one else, I have to get right with myself. Second, there is no control. What will be will be. No exception. Third, treat others how you’d like to be treated. No matter what. No fucking wonder I start thinking about other people! That’s A LOT of hard work. I’m tired now actually. What a surprise. I guess I SHOULD go get involved in someone’s business. I’m clearly bored and have nothing better to do…